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[ August 20, 2008 · 3:11pm] |
The goth-kid girl with the extreme 'Let's put a smile on that face!' scar [another case in point that facial scars are...really not particularly terrifying-looking, in my experience, anyway.] in my first hour art class asked me out via note today.
She wasn't particularly a creeper or anything about it, but, we have never spoken before.
I tried to be nice about being like 'Um, no.', and think I handled it...pretty damn gracefully, actually, considering my track record with this type of thing. [Which in the past has tended to involve anything from '...wut?' to 'WHAAAAAT?! D8']
She just very much looks like a person who doesn't need any more 'douche' in her life. And this has a lot less to do with the scars and a lot more to do with the fact that she looks like a miserably unhappy person.
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[ August 20, 2008 · 11:19am] |
I got the chibwee parts! So we now have the makings for 100 chibwees. These new parts are a bit different, I haven't played with them enough to know if it's better or worse. But either way it's a small difference so we're not like...fucked.
And so everything is officially bought for NDK :D
Who want to go to Ju's house To be slave labor for faeXfor a painting party? I'll try to do something again like last time where we bug everyone a meal or some than.
I'm also going to try to REALLY get things set up for NDK that we can take commissions year around and have a little pamphlet for it.
And so far the last day or work is trauma free :D
( Info off my LJ, but what kind of blogger am I? Apperantly a gender ambiguous one... )
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| Friendship speculation |
[ August 19, 2008 · 10:57pm] |
I've been thinking particularly a lot recently about friends and friendship and connections and bonds recently.
[There are a few things going on right now that lead to this kind of thing coming up a lot in my head.]
I came to the realization a while ago that I am...more than a bit of an elitist. It's not that I'm opposed to meeting new people--I love making new friends--and it's not like it's impossible to become one of 'mine'[honestly, I would think it's pretty easy, to become someone I care about]--but really, I do consider me and mine a cut above the rest. As far as I'm concerned, the people I care about are the best. Hands down. Nobody else is *as* worth my time. And like I said, I like making new friends, I like having lots of people to care about, I'm not interested in shutting everyone else out--usually, talk to me when I'm depressed and I'll probably be singing a different tune--just...I recognize that I do have an 'us--them' thought process. Whether it's just 'us, and them' or actively 'us vs. them'
Anyway, I know that. I'm trying to decide how much I care. Like, if it's something that bothers me. If I feel like it's not right to be that way. 'Cause sometimes I do feel vaguely guilty--and in the past, I have tried to be like 'Well, it's not that I think we're better, per se...'
But I totally do.
This thought process mostly came about because I was feeling like my 'us' was getting too narrow--like I was pushing people away, or..something along those lines.
But I realize I don't think it is. I think my definition of 'us' is changing, to some extent. I think, at this particular point in time, I'm really feeling the concept of 'Different people are there for each other in different ways.' I actually feel very...open, right now, I guess. To bonds and bonding and connections and whatnot.
I also think that I'm starting to define, for myself, more clearly, what is and isn't acceptable in a friendship. That sounds very harsh, but, you know...what I can put up with, and what I can't. What's worth it to keep a connection to a person through, and what isn't.
..I think that's it. Speculation, like I said. Sorry if you read all this thinking I was going to get to a point, instead of just meander around.
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| No I am not Edward. |
[ August 19, 2008 · 9:06pm] |
I PUT IN MY TWO WEEKS NOTICE~!
And due to the timing, it means I work precisely one more day at that job :D
So like...the real Terra should soon be back and kicking :D
I have an interview at Lane Bryant, a different job at my school (Which would actually involve me working at Central) and if worse come to worse I can whore out my plasma and try to get some short term baby sitting jobs. It'll probably be touch and go, BUT I will not be insane and wanting to stab my eye ball out.
:D
You have no idea how much lighter I feel right now. I had things to update with but...just happy.
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| I forgot how much I fucking love Batman Beyond. |
[ August 18, 2008 · 9:46pm] |
Bruce: I could tell the voice were fake because they were calling me Bruce Wayne, and that's not what I call myself in my head.
Terry: What DO you call yourself?
Bruce: *old man glare of death*
Terry. Oh...but that's MY name now.
Bruce: Tell that to my subconscious.
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[ August 17, 2008 · 2:47pm] |
!!! WHY IS THE ICON I NEED ON MY OTHER COMPUTER.
From the Wiki:
Originally in the script, the relationship between the main characters (Tulio and Miguel) was supposed to have more of an implication, with each calling the other by pet names like "darling." This would have heightened the tension when Chel came between them and when they argued about splitting up. The producers and other executives had the pet names and other references cut, but in some versions of the subtitles (which are often taken from original scripts), the pet names can still be seen.
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[ August 16, 2008 · 6:55pm] |
Courage the cowardly dog is THE MOST TERRIFYING SHIT I HAVE EVER WATCHED.
That is all.
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[ August 16, 2008 · 10:16am] |
I'm feeling better than I have in a couple of days. No particular reason, I don't think, just this morning it's felt...a little better.
Which considering it's crazy grey outside, there's the possibility of SNOW, I have to be at work in a couple hours, and...nothing has really changed, that's big-ish. :3
Oh, oh, and I want to do this again. Just 'cause I like this meme unreasonably a lot.
List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your summer. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your 7 songs.
1. Snow Patrol: Shut Your Eyes
2.Bodies Without Organs: Sunshine in the Rain
3.Breaking Benjamin: Dance With the Devil
4.Jonas Brothers: SOS
5.Carolina Liar: I'm Not Over
6.Jewel: I'm Sensitive
7.Snow Patrol: It's Beginning to Get to Me (Ignore Grissom/Sarah vid? Just listen to the song.)
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[ August 14, 2008 · 7:53pm] |
Fuck. I'm sorry, to anyone I had plans with this weekend.
Fuck.
I yelled at my dad to get the fuck over himself earlier and I'm grounded for this weekend. Sorry, Amanda. Sorry Terra, and Syd. Fuck. I'm sorry. I'm fucking sorry.
Especially to you, Syd, and you have every right to be mad at me about this, but at this point there is too much pride at stake for me to apologize and try to beg out of it.
Maybe I'll be more open to that by tomorrow or Saturday. Or else I'll claim I have work and come visit you.
I just can't even fucking deal with this. I can't deal with the way my dad acts like I'm so fucking wrong for having priorities that are different from his. I'm so fucking tired for him acting like I'm his child first and foremost, and all other aspects of ME are vastly secondary to that. I'm fucking sick of being the one who's supposed to keep this goddamn house when I have SET UP MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE SO I NEVER HAVE TO BE A HOMEMAKER BECAUSE I NEVER WANTED TO BE. It's just not even fucking fair that he can push and push and push and I never even get a word in edgewise, and then when I DO, it's me snapping, like this, and he has the authority to punish me for it.
Fuck.
I'm so sorry, guys.
I'll try to unfuck things as soon as I calm down.
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